Waiting for First Light

Waiting for First Light

My Ongoing Battle With PTSD

Book - 2016
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Random House, Inc.
Longlisted for the RBC Taylor Prize: In this piercing memoir, Roméo Dallaire, retired general and former senator, the author of the bestsellers Shake Hands with the Devil andThey Fight Like Soldiers, They Die Like Children, and one of the world's leading humanitarians, delves deep into his life since the Rwandan genocide.

At the heart of Waiting for First Light is a no-holds-barred self-portrait of a top political and military figure whose nights are invaded by despair, but who at first light faces the day with the renewed desire to make a difference in the world.
     Roméo Dallaire, traumatized by witnessing genocide on an imponderable scale in Rwanda, reflects in these pages on the nature of PTSD and the impact of that deep wound on his life since 1994, and on how he motivates himself and others to humanitarian work despite his constant struggle. Though he had been a leader in peace and in war at all levels up to deputy commander of the Canadian Army, his PTSD led to his medical dismissal from the Canadian Forces in April 2000, a blow that almost killed him. But he crawled out of the hole he fell into after he had to take off the uniform, and he has been inspiring people to give their all to multiple missions ever since, from ending genocide to eradicating the use of child soldiers to revolutionizing officer training so that our soldiers can better deal with the muddy reality of modern conflict zones and to revolutionizing our thinking about the changing nature of conflict itself.
     His new book is as compelling and original an account of suffering and endurance as Joan Didion's The Year of Magical Thinking and William Styron's Darkness Visible.

Baker & Taylor
A retired general and leading humanitarian recalls his struggle with post-traumatic stress disorder following years of witnessing genocide in Rwanda, a diagnosis that led to his dismissal from the Canadian Forces in 2000.

Publisher: Toronto : Random House Canada, c2016
ISBN: 9780345814432
Branch Call Number: 616.8521 DAL
Characteristics: xvii, 185 p. ;,22 cm.
Additional Contributors: Humphreys, Jessica Dee


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Apr 20, 2017

Outstanding commentary on PTSD. Not an easy read.

Jan 26, 2017

On the longlist for Canada Reads 2017. Though hard to read especially when it concerns the details of the Rwandan Genocide, we must address this issue and I hope CBC is brave enough to have it be one of the 5 finalists. Mr. Dallaire tries to mainly focus on PTSD and so the details of the genocide are dealt with enough to help you to realize why Dallaire is struggling but not keep it the focus of the book.

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